I don't know about you, but every year I make "New Years Resolutions," and they last for about one week. (Maybe a little longer, if they don't take much effort.)
This year, after much thought and the proper steps, I am making this year about "Creation." What that means to me, is my own little secret, but this year will be the start of a new path for Colby.
Let's be real, I have made many claims and declarations, but they all amount to about...well, not much. I need to start practicing what I preach, and I need to step up or shut the fuck up. I am taking off the party hat, because the Pity Party is over.
The biggest obstacle for me, all my life maybe, is that I put things in boxes. If I don't fit into the box that I think is the most appropriate, then I lose it. This year, all of the rules and boxes are going out the front door, because I have wasted enough time being stuck.
Life is about living, so I should make good on that. I want to laugh more. I want to smile more. I want to be more kind. I want to love more. The person that I have not loved enough, is myself. I am about to hit the big 35 (Don't hate, I look 25 LOL), and the one relationship in my life that has experienced the biggest ups and downs, has been the relationship I have with myself. We all need to love ourselves more, so I am asking myself out to coffee.
The saying, "In order to love someone else, you have to love yourself first," has never felt so real. I have experienced lows in my life, that I couldn't have seen coming, nor could I have controlled them, but I have also experienced joy. When the joy has come knocking, I always find some way to shut it out. When the joy and love knocks again...I want to be ready, and dressed for the occasion.
So, 2013 and 35...here I am. Let's do this!
